I feel like life I had before the war

“I don’t think that God has intended to live with their parents to live with their parents,” Hanya Aljamal.

He hangs on the balcony of his mother, father and five grown siblings – because peace and peace can achieve the only place that can achieve peace and tranquility.

Two years ago, 28-year-old Hanya worked as an English teacher and lived on his own. He was conducting a master’s degree in US schools in international development, and of course, to pay for the scholarship. Things went well, but life is different now.

For most days, Sunday begins on the balcony, Hanya’s neighbor, while he sees his neighbor in his 70s, carefully playing her herbs, plants and plants.

“It looks like a clearest way of resistance,” Hanya says. “In the middle of all this horror and uncertainty, there is still time to grow something and something is beautiful.”

Hanya Deir lives on Al-Balay, center of Gaza, a 25-kilometer land in the southeastern corner of the Mediterranean Sea, has been a war area in October 2023. He has To obtain a documentary radio he recorded an audio diary with BBC about what life is like.

The school he teached when the war began. Hanya has become a teacher and school without a teacher, sliding with your fingers.

“It’s a very tough goal at this time, as your whole world falls, finding a kind of talking or meaning.”

Hanya apartment shares with his family since the fifth house has begun to war. UN estimates 90% of Gazar have displaced the war – several times. Most Gazans live in temporary shelters.

On Monday, Hanya woke up in bed at 2:00.

“There was an explosion, so for a second, and following a third,” he said, “he was so loud and very terrifying. I tried to calm the bond.”

The Government of Israel stated that the military action of Gaza wants to destroy Hamas’s skills, which describes the Islamist resistance. The United Kingdom, the U.S., Israel and others named the Organization.

Israel’s military action began after the Gaza armed Gaza group, October 7, 2023, killed about 1,200 people, most civilians and 251 guerrillas.

So far, the Israeli military killed more than 56,000 people – most civilians – according to the Gaza Ministry of Health, Hamas. Israel does not currently report international journalists freely from Gaza.

Hanya is working on a support organization called the action called humanity and spends the day in one of its projects. A group of girls and boys who wear white shirts, connected around the waist, dance and then participates in a group therapy session.

It’s talking about the loss of the house, others talk about losing someone who loves their things, friends, friends. And then suddenly starts crying and everyone else falls silently. A didactic assistant leads the girl to relax in private.

“And then someone tells me that he had lost both parents,” Hanya says.

On Tuesday, Hanya is watching five colorful kites that sing in the sky from his balconies.

“I like kites – they are like active active expectations,” he explains. “Every kite is a couple of children, which is trying to be a normal childhood in the middle of all this.”

Flying kits makes changes to death, jets and “kill machines and” killing machines “. But that afternoon, the discordant fraction of the nearby drones begin.

“Sometimes they’re so loud, you can’t hear your thoughts,” he explained. “They’re reminiscent about seeing there, waiting, ready to throw.”

On Thursday morning, Hanyas listens and listens to consistent and asks what it might be. Maybe theft. Maybe war between families. Maybe someone who defends the warehouse.

Most days spends in bed. It feels dizzy every time he is exposed to fasting before Eid Al-Adha, when he is very malnutrition.

Hanya says the absence of control over what he eats – and the rest of the rest of life is having a great psychological impact.

“You can’t control anything, don’t even your thoughts, not your well-being, nor who you are,” he explains. “I needed a little bit that I don’t accept the person I identify myself.”

Hanya was used to teach school to destroy, and the idea of ​​learning abroad seems very remote.

“I felt like I was Gaslit,” Hanya said, “as all these things are made up. He wasn’t true.”

The next morning, Hanya woke up the sound of bird’s curle and prayer.

Eid is the first day of Al-ADH, when his father would usually sacrifice a sheep and share the meat and their relatives. But the family does not have the means to travel now and there is no animal to sacrifice anyway.

“Not all Gaza residents eat a type of protein, canned fava away, now for three months,” he said.

Hanya family discovers that her cousin has died when he tried to get help.

“To be honest, I didn’t know him very well,” he said, “But someone is a general tragedy of hunger, looking for food and a fairly grotesque process.”

In recent weeks there were many support events and hundreds of dead in recent weeks. Circumstances are discussed and is difficult without being able to report freely in Gaza.

Hanya knows at least 10 people who lost their life during the war. This number includes a colleague who took a month before his student and war. It was of the same age like Hanya and shared the ambition.

Hanya is updating his CV to remove the name of the college teacher. It was his referee and writing tutor, but he is dead now.

“It’s a huge thing when someone tells you that they tell you, they believe in you and bet on you,” he explains.

Hanya doesn’t think it’s no matter how these people, and she thinks she needs to rationalize their emotions in any case of their nearby family.

“It’s approximately luxurious for many of us can’t afford it.”

The fabric cock marks the beginning of another new day, and Hanya is taking a beautiful pink and blue balcony. He said he has developed the habit of looking at the sky as an escape.

“It’s very hard to find beauty of Gaza. Everything is gray, or covered or destroyed,” Hanya says.

“The only thing of the sky is that the earth lacks the colors and breaths of beauty.”